This summer has been so full, and it's barely started. I recently got back from a trip to Exuma, Bahamas, and only 4 days after that hopped on a plane and flew up to San Francisco for a few days with my best friend. Less than a week later (a few days from when I'm writing this), I'll be on a plane flying across the globe to beautiful Rio de Janiero, Brazil. I. am. so. nervous. but SO EXCITED. My friend Reyanne and I will be trekking up to one of the most impoverished and in-need favelas in Rio to give/install water filters for their area. I am so incredibly excited for this opportunity. Lots more blog posts/videos solely about this trip will be coming!!!

I am a travel junkie. I have trips planned out for the rest of my life. I love getting off a plane, coming home, and packing for my next trip. But right now, I feel exhausted. With only 3-4 days between each trip, and working/traveling back and forth between LA and San Diego during those days, I've had almost no time to actually be present and rest. I've been full of anxiety and stress, which has sucked.

While in San Francisco, I had a moment of clarity. I was lying in the grass, looking up at a perfectly blue sky. No clouds (lots of wind though), just endless blue.

My mind was clear and for the first time in a while I felt present. I felt like things fell into perspective for a short while, I felt how small all of my problems were and how letting them affect my mindset was just holding me back from my ultimate goals. This blog post really has no purpose, just self-reflecting and appreciating the small moments in between all the big ones.

I will be traveling and backpacking around Brazil for around 5 weeks, and I am terrified. But I feel so ready for this experience and everything it will allow me to give, and everything it will give to me. I've mentioned this in previous blog posts, but it's still so amazing to me the way the universe gives and takes. I've allowed myself to remain mostly positive in negative situations recently, knowing that there is no such thing as bad timing: you get what you get exactly when you need it, whether you know you need it or not. Doors felt like they slammed in my face, but I allowed myself to keep my head up; if I hadn't, I would have missed all the doors that opened for me because of it.

lifeasha bailey